Author: MT.AMIR212
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Another Year Wiser (and Still Healing)
Today is my birthday. And instead of making a list of accomplishments or pretending I have it all figured out, I’m choosing something different this year: gentleness. For a long time, birthdays felt complicated. They were milestones that came with quiet pressure—Shouldn’t I be further along by now? More healed? More confident? More “together”?Somewhere along… Read more
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Healing Is More Than Naming the Wound
For a long time, I thought healing meant being able to name what hurt me. If I could identify the trauma…If I could explain the patterns…If I could trace the behaviors back to their origin… Then surely, I was healing. But these past few months have gently — and honestly — shown me that awareness… Read more
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There’s No Such Thing as a Perfect Victim
So many of us look back on the things we did while we were just trying to survive and feel shame instead of grace. Lately, I’ve been very aware of my own imperfections—my own sin, my own shortcomings. And it’s made me think about how relentlessly hard we are on ourselves as survivors. But survival… Read more
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It’s Okay to Not Be Okay (But Don’t Walk Through It Alone)
Lately, I’ve been in a really rough place. Not the kind of rough that resolves with a good night’s sleep or a strong cup of coffee—but the kind that settles into your chest and makes even simple things feel heavy. The kind that whispers, maybe you should just disappear for a while. And if I’m… Read more
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My First Toxic Relationship Was A Childhood Friend
Loyalty and Codependency When people talk about toxic relationships, they usually mean romantic ones. But my first experience of relational harm came much earlier — through my childhood best friend. We’ll call her Lizzy. We met in elementary school. Lizzy was confident, magnetic, and naturally in charge. Being close to her made me feel chosen.… Read more
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Living with C-PTSD: Hope with an Ever-Present God
The Long Shadow of Trauma I once worked with a young woman only slightly older than me. She was vibrant—quick to smile, creatively expressive, and always wrapped in bright colors, wearing a nose ring like my own. When our company hired her, it was her confidence and initiative that stood out. There was a boldness… Read more
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Only God Can Reach a Man’s Quiet Hurt
Unspoken Pain, Unseen Battles – There’s a moment every survivor knows — the first time you say out loud what happened to you. It feels like holding broken glass in your hands. You want to speak, but the words tremble, then crack, and then suddenly everything you’ve been containing breaks open. The story spills out… Read more
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To Think A ‘No’ Means ‘Yes’
Trigger Warning: This poem contains references to sexual coercion, boundary violations, and childhood abuse, which may be distressing for some readers. Please take care of your heart while reading, and step away if you need to. Featured Survivor’s Poem on Confusion, Conditioning, Coercion, & Consent This poem explores the complexities of consent and the internal conflict… Read more
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Inside a High-Control “Bible Study”: Learning to Discern God’s Voice
When Bible Study Becomes a Threat About a month ago, I joined an online Bible study with a friend. It started simple. A Zoom link, a few encouraging messages, and the promise of deeper community and accountability. I didn’t think much of it. I love digging into Scripture with others, especially those who are passionate… Read more
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It Wasn’t The Monsters In The Closet
Featured Poem: Processing Childhood Trauma— This powerful piece was written in honor of the poet’s childhood experience with domestic abuse. Though the past was painful, today she shares her story to give voice to survivors and shed light on hidden trauma. It Wasn’t The Monsters In The Closet As a little girlI would close my… Read more